Keeping him as a drug.

Luckily I got people that supports me. People even thought I don't know them in real life, they are like my therapists.

And well, yeah, the word DUMP, been lately in every single convo. And now he was right, he's like a drug, and I just keep him there, hurting me, yelling at me. Like masochism.

Why can't I just dump him?

It's not easy, first love, it hurts.